Foundations, Walls and Windows of Opportunity
by The Speakers(4.28.86)
Accountable Accounts and Responsible Responses to
Questions about questions and Choices about choices
(Part one of three)
W
hile "good morning" is a more customary greeting
for you, "Now" has become a psychic cue initiating the focus of
mind you use for this work. So we can say "Good morning, Now"?
You are wondering if there is an exact, best way to ask for assistance,
(your Self’s or Ours’) since several evenings ago we discussed
our willingness to assist you within the framework of the Self-to-self agreement
when you ask.
Many people are involved in this sort of asking for assistance and are inquiring
into the creation of personal events, just as you are. They too want to
learn the principles and the processes for manifesting, manufacturing, producing
their private desires into their daily reality, and they will easily relate
to this conversation. (We will be discreet about your own personal specifics
here if you wish, but of course there
is an intimate angle precipitating
this discussion just as there always
is for each of you, as you
privately invite your Self’s help. Inward dialogue always stems from
personal concerns and queries.
Last week we told you that you are quite free to ask for assistance from
any and every corner of "reality" you learn to contact. We pointed
out that you are not
expected, from
any quarter, to thrash
about trying to find your answers in the vast open fields of mind, like
a lone soul searching the stretching prairie, in forlorn solitude. None
of you are expected to rely solely on your human self of human mind and
consciousness to learn - anything.
You are acutely unaccustomed to help, and especially assistance that comes
with no "strings" attached, no ulterior motives or obligating
expectations. You distrust such offers of "free" aid (for very good reasons),
and even this open offer of
our help, still sometimes makes you
uneasy. You have long refused situations where you risk indebtedness that
you think you cannot appropriately reciprocate or repay, understanding the
foundations of equity are
operationally rooted in
free
choice.
The basis of your skepticism concerning "help" is the same rationale as
your resolve to support your growth by protecting your freedom to learn
- and so, assure that you can claim your learning as your own truths. You
will not knowingly compromise your freedom to choose, jeopardizing your
development.
One of the necessary strands of Self-to-self learning
in your early life was a provisional grasp of how free choice is related
to equity.
Your early life-experience graphically taught you about the operational
realities of these concepts of free choice and fairness or justice and how
these ideas are practically related. Finally, now, you have come to a clear
conscious recognition of the origins and reasons for your reservations and
reticence toward "help", and why this work - your psychic-spiritual development
-
requires a certain kind of freedom from
psychologic, relational
obligation. This is a not so small an answer to a quirky self-mystery.
We are not saying you require an independence from relationships. Rather
we are saying that you require a freedom from manipulative chameleon relationships
that falsely obligate you psychologically and compel you, or coerce you,
emotionally. The pitfalls - the inward cost of all manner of emotional and
psychologic subterfuge is
fundamentally contrary to the self-to-Self
inside-out development, personally for each of you, as well as collectively
for all of you. Do examine the individual and social nuances here. While
in ideal terms, the self-to-Self relationship
would be a foregone
operational absolute of honest and open mutuality, that is
not
the case for most of you -
yet. This is something for each of you
to recognize.
Manipulation, as we are using it here, is layered chameleonized deception
for the vested interests of others, and the resulting machinations
of misguided obligation and false guilt, are a ruse. In this use,
misrepresentation
is a method of manipulation - it is a
disruption, a deflection
of aim designed as a ploy, intended to trick. Manipulation is a process,
or an activity, calculated to disturb, agitate, confuse - in some manner
obscure the truth of things. Manipulation is psychological and
emotional misdirection that creates vulnerability, and sets open the way
to others domination. The base intent of all manipulation is to effect profound
doubt, deep mistrust of self-to-Self, and then self to other selves that
renders the self-to-Self power of the individual, impotent.
When such an inward turmoil of mind and upset of emotion is
intentionally
manufactured, then, what is
known from intuition and inward
understanding becomes confused with outward experience (as the externalized
surface of events and feelings); and such upheaval or chaos
is intended
to thwart enlightenment. Enlightenment requires knowledge. Enlightenment
requires truth.
Deception and domination cannot exist in the light of
knowledge and truth.
We suggest that each of you look into your personal relationships with others
from this precise point of clearer private view. Then, as you peer into
the general social-cultural, political, educational, religious, scientific,
and psychological-philosophical power structures of your world-at-large,
you will be able to clearly track your own understanding of this rationale.
These "systems of thinking" are the power patterns of conceptual paradigms
that drive action - both individually and collectively.
Where manipulation and deception foster ignorance and devolution (*** meaning
degeneration), honesty and truth foster development and enlightenment. The
first is a domination-subordination paradigm of power, while the second
represents the mutuality of the self-to-Self power-pathway possible for
humanity’s development.
Inward freedom is an operational necessity for this work. Inward freedom
is the natural psychic-spiritual atmosphere as the psychological-emotional
understructure that supports human mind and consciousness in its’
explorative relationship to source Mind and Consciousness. (We have much
to discuss regarding inward freedom, both as the impetus for uncensored
mind, and as the product of uncensored mind.)
We did not say inward freedom is the currently existent
operational
atmosphere-of-mind for general humankind. That is not the case for humanity
- and this is precisely the reason we are engaged in these conversations
with you.
You intuitively make the necessary choices that will maintain the inward
freedom you need for this work. As much as is reasonably possible for you
in your daily life, you stay clear and free of relationships where you recognize
others are using their own expectations, opinions, judgements desires or
self-interests as deliberate, power-maneuvering interference, disruption
or redirection. (Yes, of course such manipulation can just as easily come
from someone trying to cast you as their villain - as it can come from someone
trying to cast you as their victim.)
You realized long ago that subversive relationships on
any level
are a matter of understanding "intention" on
every level of self-to-Self
experience - your own
and others. (We also have much to discuss
concerning this concept.) However, here in this instance of your work with
us, you recognize the need to remain detached or outside of any sorts of
deliberate restrictions, distractions or interference
with
your personal path of psychic evolution. You will not allow others
to "meddle" in your psychic development, so to say, if you become aware
that is their intention; you recognize that few indeed have any expertise
with what you are set about.
Such a protectionist psychology creates a kind of psychic distancing from
others that actually helps you maintain a certain open, stable emotional
communication
between self-and-Self, that is necessary for this
work. The ease of psychic-emotional interplay needed for this work comes
from this inward stance of psychic freedom.
Your past has taught you the need to refuse to be held responsible for others’
views of reality - to refuse to be caught up in others’ emotional
strings where you become afraid to hear what you "hear - here". Fear of
how others may perceive this information or be affected by this information,
cannot be the driver for this learning of psychic expanse.
It is time to go "back to the future"; back to "finding"
yourselves as a You need not hold yourself responsible - as if to be "forced"
into feeling guilty - over triggering others’ lessons through this
work; especially since such a large part of the purpose of our discussions
is exactly the specific inward triggering of self-to-Self learning - meant
to assist each of you. What others do, or do not do, with what we offer
here, is up to them - not up to you - beyond your striving to hear us accurately
and translate us scrupulously - and
understand skillfully, on your own
level of learning.
You know full-well that other’s
self-structured identity
and reality are as dear to them as yours are to you, and that others will
hold onto their own egocentric constructions just as tightly as you do.
Others will also erect their own kind of protectionist walls and involve
themselves in their own kinds of self-to-Self power struggles drawn from
their own kinds of misunderstandings. So, others will need to make their
own choices
for their own freedom - for their own selfhood of enlightenment;
and for the learning that comes about by opening their own "can of worms".
You are not expected to decide others’ fate - even while you may well
see it as clearly as their choices project it - and even as clearly as you
see your own.
You walk a fine line between others’ views and ideas of yourself and
your own intimate daily truths about your own
experience as a self-and-Self
identity. We are aware that you have consciously decided you can no longer
comfortably continue to keep so
obviously silent, in
all
quarters, about your psychic progress and your clearer inward intention
to undertake this work with us. While you love your friends dearly, you
have decided you cannot keep (or more accurately
pretend to keep)
your self-to-Self development silently "under wraps" so to say; at least
not from those who believe that they know you best.
Certainly, from early life, you most deliberately drew boundaries around
various aspects of your self, as you struggled to safely open each new door
of your psychic development. For these years, since you left the everyday
work place and began this more conscious apprenticeship preparing for this
new career as this Listener, you have particularly delimited (set boundaries
to) various portions of your selfhood. It was as if to say that some aspects
of your self were shareable while other views were not. Lately, you have
come to realize there has quite unintentionally and inadvertently built
up around you, a subtle psychic camouflage of your "real" Self-and-self.
This is actually quite a common consequence for very many of you, as you
explore your own steps along your private inward paths, perhaps just as
unintentionally and inadvertently building walls between various aspects
of your self, and then between your selves and others. This scenario applies
in any and every field of self-expanding endeavors where emerging abilities
are understood as initially fragile, tender and needing your self’s
protection while in the vulnerable stages of manifesting your magic - making
your inward life-energy patterns "real".
Such walling in and walling off, is reasonable construction when it is understood
as Self-to-self help, and grasped as a method for building sturdy self-to-Self
foundations. This walling off can be acknowledged as Self assistance, when
it's
aim is openly understood; when the eventual use of such walled
off construction is meant as a building block in
your purposeful selfhood
of enlightened living.
As this self, using this construction method, you could privately hold back,
keep in or shield your intimate personal transformation of changing identity,
safeguarding your gathering knowledge and growing abilities; even if you
needed the pretenses of limiting beliefs to do so. As if to cloak your certitude
of the creative re-naming of self into self-and-Self, you patterned yourself
a costume of self doubt. We ask each of you to fill in your own specific
personal "limiting beliefs" here, so that you can see in your own behavior
the exact reasons, "ways and means", underlying such walled off construction
of your own.
When you delve into the intentions underlying such activity and discover
for yourselves just what such activity is
real-ly about, you can
then use the insights of such private information to empower yourselves.
With the realization that these walls have in some manner, been your own
creations as momentarily needful choices, ask yourselves if you have built
walls to close yourself in and close others out, or walls that
represent
windows of opportunity for your safe growth. Have you built structures to
help you grow into your own power and strength to enact your selfhood more
clearly and keenly? Have you built structures you are now ready to transform/dismantle,
understanding they have served their first purposes? Ask your self about
what you have been building - and why you have been building it.
In
this immediate exploration of honest inward inquiry here, no
one will know if you answer back truthfully or answer back with pretense
and foolery - no one will know but your Self-and-self. (Of course, this
is only from your current viewpoint of human mind's usual attention-focus.)
As your Self opens its’ inward doors more fully to your self, offering
inward assistance for you to understand what you have been doing and why,
then in a manner the jig is up - and you are each faced with your own version
of our friend’s dilemma. For you are faced with persisting and insisting
on your current choice
in full view of your new self-to-Self knowledge,
or, choosing some different behavior as a more fitting reflection of what
you have now learned, and understand.
You, our colleague, understood that you needed a very specialized set of
circumstances to pursue your deeper goals, both on the inside and on the
outside. You required the physical aspects of extended periods of time and
seclusion that provide a kind of psychic isolation and privacy in order
to go about your progressive inward development. Yet, however tenuously,
you also needed to maintain at least some contact with the exterior world
and take whatever comforts are possible for you, from there. You
do
know that this fulfillment, this appearance of our selves as this voice,
is the culmination of all of those outwardly curious choices you kept making
towards the maintenance of this inwardly balanced biosphere.
In inward reality, your friends understand this situation, each in their
own way from their
own deeper aspects. In many ways, this protecting
has been as much for others’ good, as for your own. For their own
reasons, each of your friends needed you to be as reticent about these matters
as you were - until now. Of course, your decisions about these individual
situations are personal choice. Yet, these decisions are not as private
or exclusive a choice as you like to imagine. There is much more communication
goes on under the surface than most of you wish to yet acknowledge.
Even while you recognized these long standing charades, until now you have
been unwilling to face the fears that are always a woven strand of impetus
in these situations. Lately your letter writing has been off-centered -
deliberately out of kilter, with odd phraseology and juxtaposed ideas; and
you often converse "off on a tangent". You are trying to ease the way, prepare
others for this more comprehensive view of your self-and-Self that you have
been building - but in a way concealing.
You could not endure a world where no friendship was allowed to enrich the
ground of your heart and mind - and you could not face being rebuffed, or
ridiculed by those you care for - again. You could not bear the possibility
of the soul-destroying mockery, derision, contempt and disdain that had
been your
constant experiences of childhood. As long as our voice
went unheralded, unproclaimed
even to yourself, as our singular public
or even to you and George together, as our greater audience, you could continue
to quietly and almost secretively progress
safely toward this goal.
Only lately have you been questioning this choice with its situational emotional
result. While you did not actively seek to deceive anyone, you are coming
to realize that you have not been entirely candid (with those closest to
you) either. And while you
did have valid reasons for your previous
construction choices, you are now questioning their continued necessity
and benefit.
There is indeed still a possibility you may be turned-out of some of your
long-time friendships, misunderstood, and in fact almost turned-against,
by some of those you care about. At the very least, you may be relegated
to the erudite hinterland of the arcane and insignificant by those who cannot
themselves yet grasp what these efforts of yours have led you to, here -
or why you are involved in this activity.
However, our point here is that you are experiencing a
general
inward impulse to be more open. You are registering an inward stimulus or
pressure to be more
broadly forthright - regardless of the repercussions
on either the personal or the more public plane. Until now, you were unwilling
to take these risks in either personal or general ways. This guardedness
reflected a lingering insecurity that originated from living so long with
a very real fear for your physical safety.
Your feelings of safety still rest somewhat upon your freedom to provide
yourself with a physical environment of "safe conditions". You understand
such freedom of choice as part of the conjoined foundation that makes inward
growth contingent on exterior, manifest, human, physical reality,
and
then vise versa, so that you operate as a single human existence
out
of bi-focused choice.
The simplest most fundamental choices, from those concerning your physical
safety to those concerning your psychological and emotional survival - are
all highly valued by you. You know the cost and the worth of both external
and internal freedom, having
intimately learned in depth, the lessons
of "mite versus right" from
both angles. (For the rest of you,
please do think through your own specific ideas of "freedom" being from
these same two personal angles of your private experiences).
Your early life-lessons gave you the knowledge and experience to realize
the precise life-structures, both inward and outward, necessary for this
work of ours. Those early lessons helped shape your heart, giving it the
contours of both compassion and determination necessary for this work. That
beginning drove you forward, urging, enticing - in every manner challenging
you to create more life-supportive systems of belief (and thereby patterns
of action, behavior, relationship - interaction); first for your self-reality,
and then for human-hood's reality.
All experience went toward building
the foundation or the framework of this individual selfhood that could support
this eventuality of our appearance, here-and-now.
Sometimes it seems like you have watched from the outside, as your strength
of mind and heart grew. You grew yourself into this "new you," willing to
risk whatever is needed to help create a new path, a new method, a new philosophy,
psychology, spirituality - a new ideal for humankind's
comprehensive
development.
Until you had learned those early lessons, you could
not find this pathway toward
this fulfillment. This is not an idle
point for any of you in considering your intimately personal paths and purposes,
as you peer into the meaning of your own lives.
Last evening you said to George, "Isn't it funny how life has turned out…?"
- and immediately realized that certainly your human lives are not finished
and "life" as Consciousness, is
never finished - and so it does
not really "turn out" - funny or otherwise. You well know that a human lifetime
does not somehow just "turn out" this way or that way. Human lifetime takes
its ever-present shape from the multitude of minor decisions that constantly
produce fresh opportunity.
As you choose,
you direct your own learning, shaping the specific experiences or experiential
answers to your personal questions of how to create a knowledge-full
self-to-Self reality.
George and you have carved
this very shape out of your inner struggles
of mind and heart - out of the beliefs that led to decisions as choices
made by each of you, that taught you the particular lessons that you now
take for granted. It often seems to both of you as though your knowledge
is of some un-earned sort, as if you gained it or were
given it, from
in the inside, out into your conscious minds, without your own obvious
conscious effort or participation. We are glad that each of you
is coming to understand the reality as opposed to the fictions of such "sentences".
(Do you like our turn of words and meanings here?)
Continued after a short break:
Now, back to the original theme of this discussion, accountability and responsibility
for directing your questions and choices. We are aware that this material
is "hitting home" for you as immediate personal, situational reality, from
so many angles. To some of your lately distressed queries about why your
development often seems stymied and blocked in so many directions, we are
only here reminding you that you have your reasons for the delays in your
development, even when you dare not admit those reasons into your awareness
- yet. You DO recognize this truth behind your own choices.
You would do well to continue your efforts to solve some of your "real life"
dilemmas from within your intimate self-to-Self relationship. As usual,
the solution is in the lesson and the "lesson is in the
experience
of the learning". Experience is both a method and a measure for your growth
and learning.
Do not be so certain of the outcome of these situations of disclosure with
your friends. Each of you has your own free will, as we often remind you.
In this regard, you cannot know what others choices and decisions in the
future will be, as an absolute. The free will of others, like your own freewill,
is alive within your learning and that learning then goes into shaping that
future. For "Future" is not a preordained outcome or product, destined to
come about precisely thus-and-so, even when you accurately and acutely project
present positions forward. Your reality allows "time" to provide added information
for the constant formulating of your answers, as any situation develops.
Lest you could not "change" the future at all. (Yes, we will discuss this
"at length, in due course").
You are not beyond being surprised. Surprise comes to you - surprise is
possible for you, from the fact of free will, or because free will does
operate for each and every one of you. Because of the operation of individual
free will, each of you can factor
the meaning of your own
singular
individuality that you understand as
this specific named person-hood,
into the self-to-Self equation within
every experience of human
lifetime. We mean, free will is a part of the operating method for learning
in
each reincarnate experience that is considered as a separate
lifetime.
Each lifetime lived represents
its own meaning added into the tapestry of Self’s Reality,
enriching the multi-dimensions and expanded layers of knowledge that compose
your Selfhood. Do you grasp what we are saying to you here?
We can advise you only that you learn your lessons in order to USE what
you learn in
more than only
this life's practical everyday
living. Your learning in
this lifetime is used toward grander pursuits
than simply the more gratifying, or enhanced or satisfying single-life-layered
experiences of
this everyday life.
In this personal situation of your relationships with your friends, this
learning can help you be gentle and loving toward those people who have
treated you with kindness and care - regardless of your differences. (Perhaps
this does sound like your "golden rule", but is that really such an unwise
adage?)
As you begin to soar through the further reaches of self-and-Self’s
mind-ways and Reality’s expanse, many more of your choices are becoming
much more consciously apparent to you. You are consciously acknowledging
more of your mental processing. As you hold your own mind’s workings
up to your own conscious scrutiny, you push back the darkness of unknowing,
push through the muddle of misconceptions and past the miasma of misunderstanding.
Do not hold the more conscious angles of
self, responsible for the choices made (or not made) by the less consciously
aware, more egocentrically driven angles of self. (Do pay attention to your
capitalization here.) The angles of your more conscious judgement are not
meant to mete out punishment to the whole human self - as if to hold one
angle of yourself responsible for the actions of another angle, and then
castigate all angles of yourself! Such a misunderstanding of self-responsibility
is not only a misinterpretation of the mutuality between angles, focuses
and aspects of
mind - it is also a misrepresentation of that mutuality
that is the heart of the self-to-Self relationship. Such judging of self-to-self
is a judging of the angles of your own mind, and now,
(in light of this
information and your own growth) is not a truthfully accurate reflection
or conclusion of your own learning.
It is neither possible nor necessary to extract self’s or Self’s
goodness, from your self-to-Self, in such a way. The constancy of your learning
and the consistency of gained knowledge that invisibly weaves your "live"
reasoning, is not meant to be used as some sort of justification for this
egocentric-angle-of-you, to now inflict a counterfeit guilt and mistrust
upon any angle of your self, or Self.
Such a way of thinking or such a way of grasping, is chameleon, for it is
actually a distortion of understanding; it is a twisting or malformation
- a perverting or deforming or warping of inward, original meaning. Whether
deliberate or inadvertent, such misinterpretation is a corruption of the
inward truth of self-reality. When the processes of self-to-Self evolvement
are (however unwittingly), so misread, then such misunderstanding perpetuates
its underlying inaccurate, erroneous concepts of self-to-Self power - from
which it grew - into that same error-manifest, reality.
This kind of reasoning, that has you using newly learned knowledge to turn
back upon yourself and blame yourself or berate yourself for what you did
not know before you consciously learned it, leads you farther from your
goals of enlightenment - not closer. To indulge in such responses of false
self-blame and false self-guilt, is to continue to try and hide inside your
ignorance when that ignorance no longer exists! You know better; and now
clearly see that such behavior does not serve your aims. There is no such
judgement of this sort, nor guilt, blame or shame, needed for true self-to-self
or self-to-Self learning - even when you acknowledge your own choice to
follow through with an error or knowingly reproduce a chameleon creation!
We suggest to all of you that you begin to free yourselves from such erroneous
concepts of the power that is self’s nature
and Self’s
Nature. You are all entirely capable of understanding that such emotional
responses are neither truthful nor responsible manifestation/reflection
of your self-to-Self identity. The precise self-to-Self paths of individual
personal learning are exactly as intricate and uniquely formulated between
the self that is
this you and the Self of
your origin.
There is no "one size fits all" of self-to-Self learning! We can only suggest
that NOW is always a good time to put your new beliefs into the personal
action that shines Self’s light onto the human path that your self
is determined to take toward its own greatest good.
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